Huge upvotes for not only writing this, but taking your depression seriously. Nothing in life is as important as your own mental health--when that gets out of whack, everything else follows, as you well know.
Stick true to you, post here when you feel like it. I'm not here to judge, just encourage. You'd think nobody wants to read about somebody else's problems, but books like A Child Called 'It' wind up on the best-seller lists all the time. You'd be surprised what people will pay to read about someone else's problems. :)
You do you, and the world will eventually fall into place where it's supposed to.