I feel You mate.
Sadness is a blessing when used right.
Now You are in a phase when You need it to heal.
Even in the worst moments You might feel lately,
be happy about that sadness.
Because it makes a room in Your heart for new.
New, that need a space to grow.
Its like cleaning very dirty house.
Can be hard, it demand a lot of focus, energy and can get messy.
But when its done, You feel proud, clean, light.
I believe, that soon You will be glad of what your going thru now.
More pain You feel, more beautifull You will get.
Like with diamonds, they need a lot of pressure to happen ;).
Congrats on leaving antidepresants and booze!!!
Your brave, be proud of yourself <3
Of course bro, if you use people like a plaster for Your wounds, you end up bleeding on them. :) cant stand this anymore