It is kinda weird but that is the new way I discovered to cope with it. I am suffering from depression right now and I don't want anyone near me or anyone who I have a chance to meet one day in person to know that. I don't know how to cope with it in real life. People think that I am extremely fine but inside me, I have a thunder striking. I just need to be expressive somehow. Even while I am writing this now and a complete stranger is reading that... I think that is a bad idea. I need to be expressive more but I can't do it easily.