Dear @purpletanzanite, i'm glad that in the midst of all, you recognize strength still, the greatest of all strength, in God! I'd rather you thought of the situation like this:
"Since i've been in this spot too long, let me screen my plans and change strategies... Let me overturn and start afresh. And all those things i've thought i can't do, well, let them expect incoming... I'm trying them all out.. I need to be brave and bully my way to success. My peers think they have arrived, they should wait until they've seen me stun the world in a little time. I'm the best there is, i'm beautiful and strong. If i can't afford what i need, i'll get innovative, if it doesn't exist, i'll create it! I'm the best of my kind, and i'm royalty. The sun will shine on me soon, but until then, let me brace up and get ready. So help me God!"
Sorry it seems so much dear, they are words of encouragement i always give myself, and they always work. No one deserves the feeling of being beat down, but it always comes, so let your courage be greater than the fear.
Goodluck dear!
@wakkyylyon u made me tear . i read this while screaming with a heart full of empowerment.Thank u for fuelling me up.