Since I started blogging on steemit, a few days ago, I have had this growing, touch within me, of angst from not being able to write stuff that people can like. To be popular and to have lots of income, from my blogging on steemit.
It have been this little spike/spite/angst within myself that now (suddenly) blows up in my face and in my mind, like fireworks. I experience this frustration over going into comparing with other steemers. It is not pleasant. It is like angst and hurtful friction within me. Competing and comparison is really a darker dimension of the human mind and nature. Just to have that sorted out in the open.
I would go into comparing myself to X and to participate in backchats/thoughts within my mind/head: "I can't write like this", "this is like impossible" and "I can't become popular and liked like X is".
Really, if we look into the capitalistic system, it rewards abuse and ego. The very core of it. The more plants, animals or humans one can abuse and hurt - the more one is rewarded with money. Lots of money.
Basics of capitalism. Obviously we need to change this. Change starts with self...
I would like to reach as many people as possible with my message. I want to be self - honest, and clear with what I share. There is a saying that truth tellers have few friends. We will see when people are ready for more transparency, or when I can manage to be more self - honest and genuine... I guess patience is the word I am looking for here !
So anyways, I would like to clear out my mind of its bothers, being angst from competing and comparing myself to others. The best way to clear self (metaphysically/dimensionally) is with self forgiveness.
Here we go:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into competing and comparing myself to X and to end up in angst and frustration, feeling inferior and low within from comparing my success and the success of X on steemit.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed and low from taking on competing and comparing within the activity of making money on steemit.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within backchats/thoughts like: "I can't write like this", "this is impossible", "there is something wrong with me", and "I can't become popular and liked like X is".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my backchats and create my world/life according to my backchats/believes of inferiority/low.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give in time and effort to be - lie - ve.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I can't be as successful as X.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to polarize myself as inferior to X.
I commit myself to be self honest and genuine with what I write.
I commit myself to not compromise myself.
I commit myself to take on and investigate the word patience.
Thanks for reading.
Please ask me if questions/feedback.
links:
http://desteni.org/
http://desteniiprocess.com/
http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/
https://eqafe.com/
https://warnomore.wordpress.com/
https://tormodhvgj.wordpress.com/
I like you, I will follow you, just know that if you had showed up here a year ago, then you would have been loved and followed because those people making the most money on Steemit are successful because they were here blogging when nobody else was. The competition today is tougher. The early bird gets the worm, and you my friend are simply late to the buffet. All the blogging slots are pretty much full unless you are amazing. The open positions are for developers and for those who are promoting STEEM in their community. If you can show that you are introducing STEEM to many real people, then you will get paid. Or if you develop a STEEM APP, then you will get paid. Or if you are famous, then you will get paid. If you are not providing this type of value to the community, then simply treat STEEM as your blank canvas for your artistic expression:
It is harder for a whale to get into the kingdom of heaven than it is to thread a camel through the eye of a needle. Cherish your minnowness
@steemjesus thanks for the feedback. highly appreciated, and the tips you mention is interesting. i will go for being genuine and sell myself and my message. self honesty and being responsible, is not a common thing today. yes blockchain is a cool system change - but what good is a system change if man - don't change himself also?
Yeah, the biggest feature behind blockchain tech besides private key encryption is indisputable transparency.
we need equality. equal money system. to have utopia. that is what I have found out from research. what is best for all - because within all I am included - so then I get what is best.