Someone very important to me not so long ago said ‘ you are too nice ‘ those words resonated with me. You may ask ‘what’s wrong with being nice?’ Actually nothing, but when one is so nice that they lose sight of who they are and what is important to them, then it’s a problem! This is what my friend meant, that I would compromise myself for the sake of others and then this can lead to a separation or detachment from
myself, which can leave me feeling disempowered and not valued. It’s not something that is as prominent as it was a few years back, but in moments it’s here still.
I forgive myself that I haven’t seen/realised and understood how by being a nice person I am not valuing myself completely, where I will become agreeable or ‘too easy going about things, so that I don’t actually have a valid definition about things that I have defined as important to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief within and as me that I am a nice person because I go along with others and then try to please everyone to the point that I overstretch myself through taking on too much.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell untruths to cover up something that I am afraid of admitting incase I am not seen as popular or within what I have defined as accepted in my peer group.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become annoyed and frustrated and then experience being overwhelmed, like I am not in touch with what I real needs are, because I have gone into a doing anything for a quiet life type of living within and as me.
Empower - iam power - I have the power
I commit myself to redefine the word empower as a living word and to practice living this word daily - where when something comes up whereby I have to make a decision to stand within my own power I stop and breathe and slow myself down within and as the breath, and ask myself self honestly ‘is this serving me? Is this really what my decision is, in that it is best for me? I commit myself to practice this each and every time I consider myself as ‘too nice’ - I see/realise and understand how by being too nice to and towards others is not serving me and creating consequences within my life as disagreements and frustration with others, so then the effect is counter productive, because I am then seen as reactive and disagreeable.
I commit myself to walk out of disempowerment and walk into self value, so that it is who IAM in all moments.
