He lives
He lives in memory my friend.
An old proverb says to speak the name of the dead, is to bring them to life again.
So with this dread and pain you face with thoughts of him being gone.
Just know in your heart
you were bread to be strong.
They say words to those in grief belongs to the wind. But I say, to those who speak out their grief will breathe again.
Thank you my friend @neuropuke for your kind words