Though I declare that, it was end of the story- the diary with her, but couldn't end up! As she is always roaming in my mind, have to forced myself to think about her, seem to be i am talking with her with various way.
Because of egotistical and personality, i have never looked back her for more than one month, no attention, nor even watching after i have declared there will be no more story! In the mean time i have also decided to take bike for my office transportation. So, the rude attitude satying from 24th October to the 26th November. In this case, some situation arises and has difficult to go office as road are blocked and hortal from the political opposite side. But i have to go as it is open the office and allowed to wearing casual dress code.
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The black pant and craemy off-white color shirt is very suitable for me and attraction for others too! It also noticed by my others colleagues too! As, it was prepared to go for leave and blocked from my office, i have decided to take a soft look over on her. On that particular day, she is working with net PC- i have followed twice at her and found she is also look back at the same time, feel like last one month is injustice with her as not follow look back to her.
And last December is going as usually with no remarkable, in January- i have purchased a bike, may think about it that, one day i can help her with sharing a ride, but it won't work and it will probably reverse the situation.
After a little while and over a month, i send her friendship request in social media, she didn't accept it as quickly as i expected, but next morning she respond it. After that, lots of things are changed in my mind, look into her profile enormously and melt my mind upon her!
So far it was going very well, we are chatting on messenger for a issues like official transfer her, eid vacation, and not more topics. After a vacation of EID-UL-ADHA, a lots of things going to be changed. She got transfer from one wing to another wing of same department, after a while an accident and lost her sibling make it totally changed and nothing goes well. I have chatted on messenger about it with her and after that i have knocked to her twice and not responding, thus i have changed my mind and free from my mind and try to never think about her.
Today, i recall about her, just for the new ignition has maiden at the moment of day before yesterday, when she came to my floor after praying time and after my lunch time. As i mentioned it, because i have invited to her for make visit our floor as usually while she want. But she refused it as she is getting hurt from the people's who are arround her. It described by her and informed me during messenger chatting. That may be a coincidence number one, as she visits my floor and break the promise, also the colleague is sacked who make the mess up with her will be another reason.
Coincidence number two is- we met again same day at the place of tea stall near by my office. And she is present there before me and i am unaware about it. Regularly that particular stall not used by me but few days ago she was founded in my regular tea stall and i also have paid their couple of cups of tea. I think, that day she left her regular tea stall to show off me. And another day i used a non-regular tea stall and that day she went to my regular tea stall but she didn't notice me or look at me or not- I am not sure. And then, she back to my non-regular tea stall while i have seen twice for make order and pay the bill. Is it not for coincidence that she followed my tea stall where ever i have made to go?
Coincidence number three is she has changed her social platform profile picture with her regular picture. That also be the another sign to be normalised of her life.
The main part of coincidence is that, when she left the floor before the festival, she is finally look at me, the eyes was steady, eye contact was indeed, seems to be said a lots of things. May be she wants to be said that i lost you and you too. We are never met again like that, can't follow each other, can't make an eyes upon each other and i missed you a lot. That day i didn't realise it, i think that was a normal see off. On that day she weared greenish-white drees and that particular dress also used while she return at my floor. I don't know when she came, but find her while my lunch bag put on cabinet, just a flash of view and its spark in my mind. I have just to be a normal behaviour with my mobile and then back into my PC. After a little while, she is aside of my desk, where she is used to regular work, i just turn right my head and found her, she is also looked at me and it feels like send a message that i am back! There are few more people's too, she made a single chance to watch only a single person but have found only me. While she entered the room, i am sure she is looking for me as my desk is first row of the door to be in of the room. But wasn't present there for lunch box washing purpose.
And, this last thursday- we met again while left office. Normally i have used lift but that day i take stairs. She is level one, and just make a little faster she is just ahead of me. Regularly someone is with her while left the office. But today she is alone- the best chance i have lost to talk with her, she also never look back at me don't say hi-Hello too, also i have never get a chance to say something as she already make a distance before we met at the stairs. But at last she make it slower but never look back and i think it will be not good to force her talk with me and offer a cup of tea.