I have heard people saying this, l don't understand things about my life again,I am getting things the way I want it, yes fine even thinking that way u have already took a step so here is d solution to your questions
First of all u need to learn a profession as it has always being said (knowledge is the key to success)
Now after that what you need is to think of a better ways you can do things in your own ways,you can only enjoy things from your own perspective
Get the resources needed make up your minds thing might look tough in the beginning but trust me you will there through hard work and commitment
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