Thanks so much for this! I just posted about how I am an alcoholic and like you, I use it to alter my moods and become more "confident". I will watch these videos later tonight when I am not working but I already can see I relate.
I went into an AA chatroom and it was all god talk and I don't really want to be into AA after being the child of an alcholic and seeing AA meetings and people from a very young age.
Thanks for the honesty!