Bro I love that you speak from the heart and I hear you. No problems with that at all. So here's the thing. I have pretty much heard all of your questions before and they are very valid. So I understand.
My response would take forever and I would love to dig into this stuff which you on the phone if you don't mind. Let's put God/the Bible on Trial so to speak and see if it can stand on it's own. It doesn't have to be today/tonight. It's up to you. I'm open to discussing things further. I'm at 979-661-0262.
My ears are open and I don't mind listening to things you have to say.
And I yours, my friend. I have had every discussion/debate/conversation on any topic you could even try to use to counter my opinion. I believe they are all based on invalid premises. Don't forget that Christianity is 2000 years old and nothing new about or from Jesus has been added, so there are only new interpretations, but no new facts. So you would be wasting your time, anyway.
I do have 40 years of strong research on the topic under my belt and grew up as both a Reformed and Baptist Christian. I have read and outlined four different translations of the Bible( cover to cover) as well as, all the Judaic Literatures.
It's actually a bit of a passion for me, just like for yourself and have quite extensively researched all the world's religions, living and dead. I greatly enjoy any conversation which pushes me to do more research. We are the same in this way. I look forward to more future discussions.