Dear @clio, Your words keeps me warm. Thank you for coming by and talking to me with your experience and expertise.... 30 is strange indeed... I would never believe that it will affect me so much!
Thank you for sharing this with me. It's important that someone told us. Nobody told me that step in life are like that.... and can be so hard.
I wish you a merry Christmas and a lot of beautiful things for the new year coming too :)