I need to rehabituate. Penn talks a lot about it in his book..
It's easier to do things that I don't have to think about so much; and I can stand to lose some muscle too; I've been doing the gym most of my life so I just want to drop weight and then start the gym again; it fucks with my appetite way less, and I know that now, from trying lots of things over the years.
And for me, even going a day without a drink was hard; so I want to spend some time without it again; and feel what that's like again.
Mostly I'm glad I can rebuild my relationships with things over time and be exactly as I want to be.
Its really great that you realized what was going wrong and working on it to make it right. Yes alcohol also leads to increase in weight so better stay away from it. Why don't you try yoga?It will help you in regaining both mentally(spiritual development ) and physically too.
Yoga is too hard to do if heavy; I am accomplished at yoga, looking forward to doing it again.