You made me cry. I feel I've wasted the great things in life and ended up in this mess of shattering life events. I've lost so many things to music, I've gained as many. But ultimately the torment never fades away but on the moment that I'm creating music. I was told that if I gave my life to music, music would pay me back...
Cheers
Thanks so much for this comment, @greencross. Music is an anchor, a solace, and a life saver. I appreciate you; just keep Beethoven in your mind :)