Yes I hear that. It takes some time, for some of us, to get into the habit. But like with flexing a muscle, it gets better over time. I go through phases myself but the more I do it, the more I deepen and the more I learn, so it's quite an exciting and adventurous journey within. Have fun!
this is the continuation of the story https://steemit.com/ecotrain/@bristena94/post-meditation-retreat-reflections-on-the-true-self-emerging-part-ii
thanks for passing by! many blessings xxx