Challenging times.
I read someplace that relationships are the hardest karma. I know this is true for me. Transitioning from through these feelings with others can be ahelp, and surly it can harm.
Finding a path forward from dark times can be difficult, recently I have been recognizing that my adult daughter still needs me. However difficult my situation may be, I must improve my reality so that gers can be better.
I admire your courage, sharing sensitive topics takes a lot of it.