Many experiences that are crossed in life, can leave severe marks in each one of us. And depression is one of them.
Clearly go through a process as difficult, unique and profound as it is this disease, it is not pleasant when you are living, but on the contrary we believe that it is a real hell.
It is important to highlight the different degrees of this disease. There are people who spend a few months, another two years (as was my case), and I have known cases where you live in a constant depression all your life.
From this pain so great, which gradually takes you away from a lot of things such as: activities, friends, family, and life in general, I learned that the acceptance of every test that places your life is essential.
At the same time that you move away from the external, you begin to draw closer to your interior. In my case, I experienced moments of great solitude, where there was no other option than to befriend myself. And this is great.
Many times, we place our life and our happiness in other hands; We need someone else to provide our well-being, without realizing that we are the only ones responsible for that state.
And it is in that moment of abandonment with ourselves, of lying to us for so long, of not taking care of ourselves, not loving or protecting ourselves, when life wisely strips us of everything and makes us face the lie we create.
And there, you have to dig ... What else can you do?
Instinctively everything moves us to that place. Start the nostalgia, the guilt, the anger, the incomprehension, the loneliness. All sensations that seem negative at first, but then end up being our real teachers.
It is learned in the darkness, in the struggle that is debated in our hearts. You learn with tests and disappointments. No one experiences a true transformation in the joy or the murmur of the streets. Those things are inside of us, they speak softly and in pause. They are so intimate that perhaps they could be shared with a friend, but not even that.
I understood that they are personal games.
Anyone who has gone through an experience as vindicating as it is, will understand me. And he who is living it, and is still in darkness, not understanding anything, I can tell him that everything will happen. Everything will be fixed little by little. As time goes by, you will understand certain things and not others, but this is how this game called life works.
You will become a stronger person, you will begin to trust in life (because in each lesson, something that you must learn is hidden). Nothing happens in vain; and what you thought terrible, then it will be laughable (believe me).
It is true that there are very hard situations, but if you are diving it is because you need it, and you are prepared to face it. In accepting resides the beginning of healing.
Trust yourself!