I am mentally enthralled. I do not know the reason, but I feel depressed. I am in a depressed state. Thus, writing a blog is too painful. However, I have to write without stopping the act of writing in any state.
It is because of self-recuperation by writing. I can not go forward if I do not expose the darkness that I hate in myself. I do not want to leave home. I am in a state of withdrawal.
Today, I have to go to church, but do not be in this mental state. It will come home soon even if impossible. I do not want to go outside, I feel strong. It is difficult to get them to understand this feeling. It is because it does not understand by appearance.
However, the mind is being eroded gradually. Today is Sunday and I am fortunate. It is because you do not have to go to the work place. Tomorrow is too troublesome. However, I have to go to the workshop. It is because everyone is on duty.
Until recently, it was a manic state that I was depressed overnight. It is always manic or depressed. There is no middle. Therefore, it becomes extremely troublesome because the mental state seems to be wildly rampant.
If I had such a feeling, it got darker and steadier. In this way, I am degassing by writing my feelings of the current state without covering it. Otherwise, it will be dominated by the darkest feelings.
As long as this condition persists, I can not make it to go out. However, as a little better, by going out, it will be a little nice. The time zone in which we can go out is limited, and yet the range of action is narrowed.
It is important to act while being limited, and to prevent deterioration of the state. While writing in this way, I feel a little sick. I do not know if I can go to the church. It will be impossible now. In truth, it is important to go out and talk to other people, but I feel frustrated by myself because I can not do it.
Nevertheless, by writing in the breasts, the miserable feelings become a little better. Well, I'd like to go into a bath and put in ordering my feelings. Today, though my feelings are sinking, I do not know if it will be more severe tomorrow, or I will be better, but I want to cherish the day of today.
I hope this is just a story !!!
Everyone should keep themselves in full control without relying not on nospoda god not only the devil himself !!!!