Wow, @khadija14, this little story really blows me away. You've used such beautiful words to describe a condition and state of mind that is so painful.
I'm sorry I haven't responded sooner. I am attempting to recover my @jayna account. For now I will be posting as @jaynas-minime. I wrote a post about it, and you can read it here. I hope to be back soon with my restored account.
Thanx for coming along @jaynas-minime .I sure will read your post.Hope you recover your account soon.Best of luck!!