I guess this is a disease of high-aware, intelligent people. It's like walking two different paths at the same time.
This must be it for them. going forward on a road
back on the other way. singing in bright air on a road
alive like a bird, frozen on the other road
dead like a wolf. the more knowledgeable people I've seen, the more they tend to feel contempt and worthless. Normally, people hit themselves softer with the stick in their hand, but they hit harder, I guess.
On the other hand, if I have seen people who are called ignorant and not worth their money, they tend to attribute much more value to themselves than they are worth.