I had been married for 50 years when I found out my wife had cheated on me on a daily basis. She had sexual relations with everyone in her office. Each day she would visit an adult cinema, kneel down and let a procession of men do as they wanted with her.
Through tears I asked her how she could do this to me.
She said none of it meant anything and she loved only me. I was the only one allowed to hold her hand.
I'm so sorry for your marriage. :(
It's okay. It's fiction.
She doesn't even hold my hand. :-)