7 years in a relationship is not a short thing, not as short as we separated when he left me in a place where we made a promise to remain faithful together, and he chose to go with his new lover, the pain in the heart could not be stopped and tears could not be stopped. hold him back in this hug. The feeling of emptiness felt so clear in the heart.
When I woke up from sleep that was not asleep due to being accompanied by sadness, I immediately remembered him who left my life, this feeling in my heart was not easy to believe but it still happened, tears continued to fall remembering he was gone, who knows when he will return again in my arms and maybe he will never come back, screams of heart and tears of sadness always color my days.
Days keep changing and sadness still envelops, endless sadness who knows how long. Every way I have tried to give up and forget he who has gone from this warm hug. I have tried to spend time with my friends and go to a place where we can gather together, but he always overshadows and continues to petite.
4 months have passed and this heart is still unable to give up his departure, this heart is too difficult to forget and accept his departure. Feeling of emptiness, pain and tears often accompany this life. In between my prayers I always slip his name so that God can take care of him when he is far from me.
The day begins to come in turn but this heart will never be replaced by another. At that time there was someone who began to approach and pay attention to me, he had given a sense of comfort in this heart and began to divert attention in this sad world.
When I try to open this heart to others, I finally have a relationship with someone who can divert my sadness, he can make me laugh out loud after forgetting this sadness. After a time, I have tried to open my heart to others, it turns out it's not that easy I forget and let go of him who has colored my days for 7 years.
The sense of comfort that ever existed with a new lover was fading more and more, I could not continue this relationship, and increasingly miss him who had stopped 7 years in this heart. I want to repeat the past and improve it so we can stay together.
8 months have passed and 8 months that we did not communicate let alone meet, at that time I was still missing trying to contact him, anxiety and fear had come when I wanted to contact him, and immediately courage began to emerge and I immediately contacted him by telephone. Unexpectedly, he felt the same longing, it was clear that in his heart cheerfulness began to be felt.
A day goes by, communication continues and hope to return is still looming in the heart, the following days we are still communicating well, intimate and getting closer like we are still in a relationship first.
At that time I invited him to go to a place where that place was once one of our memories, he also agreed to that invitation, this feeling of pleasure, happiness certainly came on the sidelines of this joyful remembrance of him who was almost back in this warm embrace.
When the first week came for some reason and why he asked me to leave his life (again), this heart did not want to lose him for the second time, I still tried to be the best in his life once in a while I begged and asked him to stay in a warm hug this and never leave again.
Various ways I have taken to be able to make him sure of the sincerity of this love, he began to melt again and the feeling of pleasure, happiness and joy came again.
But the next day he again, again and again he told me to leave his life and he had sent a message to me "forgive me, I can not improve this relationship, my love is not like before, this decision I have considered. Thank you for coloring my days for 7 years ". Reading the short message I began to understand the contents in his heart with sadness that always accompanies, my hopes will not fade, I persevere and wait for him to leave and will definitely return