The word miss is already familiar to the ear. Indeed, every day I live, with the word miss who never moved from the brain.
Oath! why do I have to experience it like this, and keep crying. just because of you, I'm crying because of you, I don't want to eat because you're sick. Whatever I experienced was all because of you. Why always you?
I miss, Miss you with you who is always there for me, always loyal beside me. I miss you again and again. You are always in my memory. Where are you? At times like this, I miss you even more. I want to go back to normal. Back as usual. Back as before, where there is no distance separating us. This distance is what torments me now. I just want you. I get confused when I need you, you don't exist. Why? why do I have to know you. Why do I have to be close when finally the distance separates us. I really hate it. Now what should I do? I'm confused, I'm pensive no one can pull me from my confusion now.
My cellphone rang suddenly, someone called me. Are you that? I hope so. I also took my cellphone on the table. It turned out to be you.
"Hello? fino? " I said starting.
"Ehm yes. This is me, fino. Can you meet me now? ” he replied with his voice that I still remember.
"Yes, where can we meet?" I asked.
"Ok, I'll wait in the usual place"
The telephone was disconnected. That's indeed you fino. But you are really different from what I used to know. Is this our conversation soon? I don't think it was this fast. I didn't think you had changed that far. Now is not the time to think about that. Now I have to meet fino and talk about everything that happened to him. I'm sure he must want to talk about something. About this relationship more precisely.
I've felt something bad, before. maybe it's a hunch. Give me a hard heart, God. Finally I arrived, I saw him from afar. He looks handsome today. But unfortunately I will not enjoy his good looks anymore. I walked slowly, approached him and greeted him slowly. "Fino ..." he turned and gave his most beautiful smile. I'm sure it must be the last smile for me.
"Finally you come, Mia" I smiled at his voice saying my name. My name that you haven't mentioned for a long time and you remember again. Is not it?.
"Yeah, I certainly came," I said, returning his smile.
"Please sit" he also invited me to sit. Beside him.
I feel the warmth of your body sticking to my body. So warm and comfortable. I'm happy, I'm very happy now finally I can feel your body warm again. I also hope to hold your hand again this time. But maybe not.
"There's something I want to talk to you about, Mia," he said breaking the silence
"What?" I replied, looking into his very deep eyes.
"What, are you happy during your relationship with me Mia?" he asked with a little doubt.
"Of course. I'm very pleased. I'm very pleased. Maybe you don't. " I said.
His eyes immediately glared at me after I said that. He looks at me. Our eyes meet each other. But that was all shortly. He just turned my gaze away again. He also replied "I'm also happy ko .."
"Don't lie to your own feelings. I know you don't have any feelings for me anymore. I know that ”I can feel what he feels now. Surely her heart was feeling confused about what to answer?
"I'm sorry Mia" he suddenly voiced.
"I'm used to fin, like this. I'm used to it because you often do this to my heart. I can only be patient, "my eyes suddenly just runny.
"Why are you crying?" he asked with a face that did not know anything.
"Why?? why do you ask? because I feel pain again. It hurts my heart to fin! Why did you shoot me last time? For what I also have to accept you too. If in the end I have to feel sick like this? " He is silent. There is no sound. There was only the sound of my crying at that time. Why is he silent? Finally, I started talking again.
"If you don't love me anymore, I don't have any taste anymore. Let's just break up. I'm tired with you! " I said while leaving to leave. But fino pulled my hand. "Mia!"
"What else?" I answered, sir.
"Maybe this is the best, I'm sorry"
"I already forgive you fin! From the first "I went away from him.
This meeting is the last meeting I see you fin. Thanks for being a part of my life story. I'm happy fin, as long as I'm dating you. I'm sorry if all this time I couldn't make you happy, I'm sorry. Maybe this is the best bat for you and me. One year with me might bore you. I understand how you feel. Thank you for this one year fin. Now there is no more 'we' yourself, me too. I won't forget fin. I won't 🙂