I know my name is a star, I'm 19 years old, though. Right now I work at a famous mall in Jakarta. Oh yeah, I used to be called by my coworkers, "Grave Star", because the grave is quiet, because I am alone in a quiet place to look for inspiration or to calm down so haha, let's start
Well .. On Thursday morning that about 1 year ago I went to work with a new motorbike hehe, now I departed, whatever happened, I felt really happy, when I got to work, for some reason in my mind, I asked him to diploting him on the ground area in front of breadtalk. I work at the mall as a researcher or look at building assets. At that time I was looking at the assets of the building either intentionally or not, I saw the figure of an angel (oh how beautiful) in my heart, I tried to look at her, and she smiled at me like that, but I did not dare to be close or acquainted with her.
Next, it's time for lunch, there I rest in the cafeteria for lunch, again delicious eating at my break, suddenly I met with him, and again he smiled at me, "oh how beautiful the smile of an angel".
Not too long he left. I just imagined her smile to me that was very, very beautiful.
After the break was over, I returned to the place earlier to check the assets of the assets, coincidentally he was also there, so I started to vent to acquaintance with him (do not need to be discussed acquaintance hehe).
Apparently the angel's name was named tri. And finally we exchanged bb pins. After that I tried bbm he was joking, even more often bbman with him, and he also said to feel comfortable with me, that's where I express my love to him. It turns out oh it turns out I was accepted by him, my feelings might be flowering at that time and sometimes one of his own whims heard him accept my love.
When it's legitimate my relationship with him, it turns out that my best friend who (his name is Azhar) likes him, to be honest I don't know if he likes the tri, after being found out I often walk with the tri, I and Azhar just got into a fight because I invented the same tri. After that incident, I and Azhar never talked, stayed with friends because maybe he was very angry with me.
5 days after that incident I was silenced by Azhar and my friend told me for a long time.
"How come I am willing to tri to you, I also realize that my soul mate is not him"
"Are you sure the jar is okay?"
"It's okay to just slow down for my best friend's sake".
"But I don't want our friendship to break up just because of one of your girlfriends I already think of my sister as jar"
"It's okay, it's okay, you're right with him, but I want to be alone first, but I still think you're my best friend, but I'm not rich anymore."
"So sorry, yeah"
"It's fine, dam"
I get tri love but I have to lose my best friend who also likes tri.
Road 5 months I was with him hard I was happy to live with him, there is another attractive girl figure for me, I like him, but I really love the tri. And it turns out it hasn't been long for tri to talk to me if he's already engaged to another guy! Duaaaaarr !!! I exploded my heart to hear it, broken my heart like a broken plate that was chaotic, random mess my mind, frustrated, confused all mixed up. I only cry at home all day, work doesn't even concentrate, but Tri still wrote dear to me, there I feel really guilty about him because I love the girl who is engaged to another guy, yes or no I want to be able to let him go, it was hard to get away from him!
I try and think to be able to stay away from me by saying that I like his own best friend and he is the person I like but I can't love him because I already love with tri, his best friend's name is Cindy, Cindy is a sweet person, nice too.
"Come on, I'm honest if I like Cindy".
"Why didn't I say from the first if you like Cindy".
"I do not want to hurt people who I can not stay away from, the person I love the most even though I know you are someone else's fiance".
"It's up to you !! I hate you !! "
"Ayy, I'm with him just limited to like it, just happy, not more so I'm just a friend for the sake of God !!"
"Very stupid, I hate you two. What a jerk, everyone!
"O Allah, ay, I do not love him, I am unfortunately only with you for the sake of Allah".
"I love you but as long as you know I'm engaged because I have to, I don't love him, I'm unfortunately the same as you !!"
And suddenly he ... He just left me like that.
I realized he really loved me and I was pondering and usually just cry in my heart I said, even though I'm a guy but guys also have a feeling tri I don't want to like this, you're fiance of others, you should be able to choose if you really love me end your fiancee
The next day I went to work with very deep sadness, there I asked for input or enlightenment
I then asked friends at work.
"Eh eh if you like a girl but the girl is already engaged, what do you guys do better go to ningalin him if I stay in this position"
My friends also say "you're really stupid, you know, he's already engaged, you're close"
I could only keep quiet.
In my heart I can only say "but I'm honest if I really love him, I can't hate it either, I can't go up to you guys. I want to say I'm stupid, I love people, but feelings can't be emptied or forced".
After that I swear I really regret saying that to him, I love him, even though I know he's someone else's fiance, if possible I will continue to be happy for him if only he gave me one more chance, I would make him a main, I wouldn't make him like this that every day I can only pray from a distance for his safety and ask Allah to look after him.
I want everything to go back to being rich again, if I could, could repeat all this, I would not have loved you tri
I'm sorry to you, I know I'm wrong, I know I'm selfish who doesn't appreciate you love because I look at the ring that is always stuck on your ring finger.
And until now I still really love you, I'm still waiting for the words I'm sorry I tri.
And this feeling will not disappear to you tri forever !!
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