If @amirani was the story of existential spirituality and @felt.buzz an existential nightmare, then yours is a story on perverted faith, or believing to believe with no sense of resigning oneself nor having actual Faith. But this is where I want to bounce from, his perverted faith had been questioned many a times and all forces from Nature to Culture (family) warned him that he shall not receive what he darkly wishes for. And with a will so strong, he pushed on but only made awkward his understanding of both Nature and Culture (social cues). At the end, with him breaking his perverted faith did he saw what he wanted to see, not his rival but something to finally see. At this, his wish was granted and soon he would die; his perverted faith rewarded by killing himself. At the end, he told himself right when to the outsider he was only feeding his perverted faith. Good story, waiting to see yer comment on me story!~
