It is great to explore the world and feel it. In Vietnam, people also drink a lot :) It's bad, but I can see there are many reasons for that.
:) PS: If you have found happiness when you are alone, you can say that you are very much like me! :) Great to meet you :)
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I'm very happy to meet you too.
I think that people like us are pretty rare and when they meet it is even more unusual.
Anyway I don't want you to think about me as a boring person...
I (would) like to have fun but after something goes well I always get sad because I perceive that the "good sensation" I felt it's dead and that all the future good sensations will die as well: I perceive that nothing is eternal...
So I actually make a choice everyday: I ask myself if I have to get some fun and than remain in painfully thoughts for a while or if I have to stay alone and focus on other things so I don't think about my sadness and its reasons (that's why I study mathematics, etc.).
During this time in Poland (tomorrow I leave), I took the first choice and I drank a lot, I even smoked (I can't stand smoking) but I did it because I knew that I could be happy (temporarily) and trow away my sad thoughts...
So now I hope you don't think about me as a boring person: I'm sad, not boring :)
(I hope that my English will let you understand)
P.S.: During my life I found only few times what it seemed to me eternal happiness and I understood that it was already inside me... No one put it... Before I used to think that people that makes you fall in love are responsible for your happiness, and it's not! I understood that all the love you can donate it's already inside of you, the other person is just the owner of the key that makes your heart "open", and let you share your love...
You can learn to give a key to each person in the planet and love each of them, your love has no limits. I think that the only way to happiness is loving everyone without any expectation because loving just one person lead you to wonder and make expectations that a day or another will be unfulfilled...
But I'm not prepared to love all the people in the world...