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Hi Lena, Yes, it did change. When I was about 29 years old I got married to a girl at my work. It was a couple months later that I turned 30. Well she left me about 2 years later. Before that I can feel there was something wrong, but I couldn't get her to talk to me. I suggested we go to a marriage counselor. She didn't want to go. I just wanted her to talk to me and tell me what is the matter. She told me that there are things that she will never tell me. So before I knew it I received divorce papers. I wouldn't sign them, but then I heard she was living with someone. That is when I signed the papers. After that I would just go out and drink at the dance bars. I don't do that any more, but did that a lot then. That wasn't my normal pattern. During our marriage together we had just bought a house and we needed both incomes to make the payments. When she left I had to get roommates or I would have lost the house for sure. I would say to myself, why didn't she leave before we bought this house. Same house I am in now. I went going on dates never got the right match. By the time of was 40 I had paid off a lot of debt so that I didn't have to have roommates. Anyway those 10 years it is hard to say. I even had women that proposed to me. I didn't want to marry them. I guess I could see in my head that it wouldn't work. I mean if dating them doesn't go that well then living with them can't be any better. Well, in my thoughts anyway. Now that was my life then. I was going though a lot of stuff.

If you decide to get married it is best to really look at your potential partner. As for me she was very good looking, but I should chosen someone that believes like I believe. She seemed to, but not quite there. I did have people tell me this is not the one. Well, I should have listened. I was so sure she was the one, but I didn't see or I refused to see the other things. After me she married 3 more times at least. I know this is getting long. You seem like a very nice person and I wouldn't want you to go through what I went through.

So I don't know if I even answered your question, but I hope I did.

Greetings, David.