Beautiful writing. :) We are all wearing a masquerade, trying to survive in the world. It's astonishing how few people really look at themselves for what they are. People don't realize who they really are, and often choose to reject it.
It's only when you are yourself that your life has any real meaning. But for that, you have to find yourself - that's where the challenge lies!
exactly! I cant seem to find myself no matter how deep within myself I look.
Have you tried Mindfulness? Check it out, might help!
Meditation works best for me. I like being nothing, it makes me feel free :)
Mindful meditation is a form of meditation. You can give that a try. I have found that goes furthest in stripping away your ego and self defences than any other meditation. It may or may not work for you, but worth a shot :)