@bendjmiller222 thank you so much because your words and offer for friendship mean a lot to me . I am going through very difficult emotional times .
I just read @dantheman post I saw today and it inspired me to surrender to reality understanding I am on the right path .
Here is what I replied :
When you find true freedom, you have nothing left to lose.
I have nothing left to loose but my life and as long as I wake up every morning I am reminded that I am on a mission as well trying very hard to surrender and accept reality .
Sometimes surrender means giving up from trying to understand, and becoming comfortable with not knowing.- Eckhart Tolle