I met her 2 years ago. The most beautiful girl I have ever seen. Since then we became great friends. I talked to her every day, shared everything with her, but eventually I started having feelings for her
After some time, I told her how much I like her. It didn’t turn out good. She said she only liked me as a friend, and she wanted it to stay that way.
In the meantime, I somehow found out that she liked some other guy. I felt betrayed. I didn’t know what to do anymore. I was deeply in love with her, desperate not to lose her, so I was calling her all the time, texting her and so on, just making sure she is not dating anyone else. I thought I could win her by doing that. After some time, I found out that I was wrong, so I told her how I feel about her… again. Her response was the same. We argued a lot that night and it got really bad. Everything ended that night. Our friendship was dead. I thought it was all over after some time I even thought I was over her.
Few months ago, my birthday was getting near, so I was planning my party. I decided to invite her after all, there was nothing wrong with inviting an old friend to my party. We had a great time at my birthday, exchanged a few words and danced for a while. We continued seeing each other after my birthday. We became friends again, but the closer we were getting, I could not hold back my old feelings for her.
Now I think I’m slowly losing her again because of my feelings. I just can’t look at her as a friend. I act too sensitive, everything about her bothers me. I constantly make her troubles and annoy her in every possible way. Worst part is that I blame her for everything. She is the reason that even our friendship cannot work anymore. That’s what I thought
Actually, maybe I'm still in love with her. I know that I made her really distant lately, but I can’t settle for the fact that she is only a friend
Is it better if I just stay away from her and try to forget her? Or should I just accept that she will always be a friend and nothing more