I stay with your idea of your imagination of yourself today, because it is the most important thing in life coaching and thus in the successful handling of your mind.
What is your idea of your future? Nebulous, clear, positive or negative?
Your imagination builds on your experiences that you have stored in your subconscious mind. If you have not made it several times already, the fear, panic and the conviction becomes more and more that you can not do it anymore or not again next time.
The good news is, that's nonsense. The new opportunity has nothing to do with the past. And your imagination is not your memory, so it does more than just spin off old movies from the last time you did not make it again.
Let your imagination use your imagination and craft the future the way you want it, no matter how "realistic" that may be to you. We are talking about fantasy, not reality.
"Realistic", in turn, is everything that builds on your experience and thus a current result of your past. But this is about creating your future and it can not even be included in your reality.
So, with the help of your imagination, assemble your idea of your future the way you would like to and convince yourself that it will happen. Even if everyone thinks you're crazy, it will only be your future reality.
And at the latest then they no longer think you are crazy, but envy you.
I have experienced the latter many times in my life.
You decide your future.