Basically I just ‘get through’ my day and all my relationships, reactively and forcefully move forward. Then when I have time and am in a safe space I recover from the incredible stress of this way of living and think about how the world should be. I basically refuse or object to what is. You how Eckhart Tolle and the Law of Attraciton, it’s all about being happy where you are and accepting the moment, well that just isn’t possible for me, I can say with certainty now.
So I get through my gritty, awkward, day and then go home and think about, rationalize why it sucked, that life sucks because everything is not the way it is supposed to be, we are backwards and doing something wrong.
Either this is true and there is a way that is right that we are simply collectively not going, or it isn’t true and I fill the spot in our world of the cynic. It’s a lose lose situation for me, sadly.
What obvious things do I see about our world, the western world I suppose, that should change and would help everyone? Health is glaringly obvious. We eat too much meat, because too much is available. The other thing is gender. There are too many schizophrenic men in places of great power and I do suspect that schizophrenia is caused by fluctuating gender identity. Those are the two obvious things for me. Maybe they are somehow related.
I am too idealistic, or am I justified in being so alarmed that I no longer prioritize finding practical solutions for my life because the whole system is broken?