I'm happy to know you are doing a lot better health-wise, and with your spiritual life - a new you, I will say.
I've not really been myself since I lost my mom last year. I've been battling with grief and depression, while pretending to be normal to my wife and kid.
It has not been easy but I believe I will be fine with time too.
I'm so sorry you lost your mom, my brother. You know you'll be with her again before you know it. Just remember her life and praise her life. Raise your kid to know her as if she's here. Don't make her a memory, keep her a living part of you.
I love you my brother, reach out any time you need to. I'm here.