I'm sorry to say this, but I don't believe you're saying the truth.
I think you're just trying to arouse people's emotions and garner upvotes and comments.
Well, it's just my opinion.
But then if it's not true, pls try account recovery. And also, pls don't give up.
Good things happens to those who don't give up.
*IF LIFE GIVES YOU SHIT, YOU MAKE COOL-AID
That would be some nasty tasting cool-aid!!! yuck!!!