One's own head can be your best ally or your worst enemy.
The realization that nobody knows what ones doing is truly liberating in some ways. It gives us the possibility to act without / less fear of judgement but just if we put our new thinking pattern into real life action.
That's the hard part, the part many fail to do, me included. The part which in the end may result in more sadness if realization took place but actions don't follow.
"Oh, my post just made 3.4$ for which I paid 2$ to booster, 0.5$ to randowhale, and some peanuts to buildawhale. Great. I just stop posting." Instead of improving your posts, engagement, changing the medium.
The knowing that there's more out there and it's pretty easy to achieve, you just have to do it. But you don't do it.
For me one of life's meanings is the constant improving on realization-implementation.
Thanks for sharing your story, Jerry. Hearing "successful" people struggling with the same stuff, makes the journey more enjoyable.