Good luck on your journey Vicky !
I went trough it for over 8 years myself trying to fix my not so healthy eating habbits and managed to completely solve it last year after having tried everything. Things started falling in place once I started understanding some basic neuroscience. In short what I learned is that everything is very emotional, it's not about the food but about being unable to handle the choice. I took away the choice and fully submitted myself to science and what it says about health for an entire month. nutritionfacts.org really helped me with this. After that month I felt incredible and had lost a lot of weight. Allowing myself the choice again quickly turned into a disaster relaps. The difference in how I felt a week later was huge and I was able to make a mental switch and my emotional part in a way fell in love with healthy food. Eating healthy without having to count any calories is the easyest thing in the world right now.
** 'It's also the Whole foods Plant Based diet' that I'm on right now, but it does not feel like a diet which makes it sustainable long term.
Thats fantastic, I completely understand the emotional connection as well. Im also coming off some long term medication which has hindered any success in the past. Here's to a healthier future!