I can hear it, see it, and feel it in my mouth. As weeks passes by me I hope that my fear will not get into a much worse situation when I will not be able to chew anymore. But it is one reality in life that is very difficult to accept when your basic function as a human being will get taken away from you and from that I could say that it is just better for my mother to miscarry me in her womb than to undergo another series of burdens such as this continual disabilities and disfigurement of my head and back.
I must face it despite it is all too depressing and sad of a life that I have, it is just my thoughts are temporarily blocked on what I do everyday which is to write and basically use the Internet. I could not even go out and enjoy the sunshine because I cannot tolerate much of a sitting if I am not in my old camping chair.
I just hope that my efforts will not be in vain because I had come as far as this and I wanted to pursue still all my set goals if time will be so kind to me. But it seems that my health condition is not yet subdued and I am not surprised because my medicine doesn't work as effectively as I expect it, holding it maybe to slow down but not to totally stop.
But I yet to see what will the coming months will bring me or will I just be like an onion that is peeled layer by layer until nothing is left, only a destroyed and mangled of what was once a complete beautiful body and soul of mine. I am thankful nonetheless because at least I had felt the love and caring thoughts of other people in a far away land who understands my disposition. So I will carry on and see what and where my fate will lead me into, I pray God that may it be a better thing because I am already tired.
yes we are here with you waiting for your improving no matter how long the road is and always expect some unexpected goodness to happen suddenly
Thank you @leeuw God bless you for all your kindness. I'll promise to be more tough and continue with all my efforts even though it is just hard.
Don't give up, buddy. Have you got second opinions from medical specialists based in Manila's best hospitals?
I am now just preparing as soon as my family believes that I have the money to pay for what I want to do for my surgeries. I am not giving up because it would get worse if I will not do anything and sit idly by. @darthnava
God be with you, my friend.
Be strong my friend! We know you are and you are always in our thoughts!
Dont worry and everything will be ok. You will become healthy it is all a matter of time.
Be positive and dont be afraid. Only what we believe in happens to us. Be positive. Bless u!
I wish you all the best, stay strong.
Fuerza @cryptopie no te rindas que de seguro Dios tiene preparado para tí muchas cosas buenas en el futuro
I do not like reading this, It's not fair that you spend so much suffering and pain.
God take care of you!
I hope your condition will always be healthy
If you can keep your spirit strong God will reward you. The body is only a temporary vessel, your spirit will live forever. Show the world your light and God will make everything right in the end. I'll pray for you bro...