Insomnia and anxiety attacks are all too often after my many days here in the clinic. Today I feel like like everything is too complicated and my body is so very tired of the constant struggle with my emotions.
The stupid dreams that I have every night are a big part of this, and every little mishap that happens during the day makes me extremely nervous and depressed.
I keep thinking that I need somebody new in my life that will help me to feel good again, I just yearn to be loved and accepted by somebody with a kind heart hoping that my problems will go away, In my mind I know this is wrong and the worst solution but my heard tells me a diferent story.
The ups and downs are constantly there, Im either extremely happy and positive or the complete oposite. I feel worse almost as terrible today as I did the day before I came here.
Ive been told that maybe they are going to change my medication, that in itself causes panick due to my rejection to pharmaceuticals. This morning they gave me diazepam to help calm me down, but I just want to be free of these pills.
I feel like I would be willing to do anything to help ease the pain , to stop the ups and downs and just be able to be a normal happy person again.
Meditate, learn how to stop thinking and focus on you breathing! Do this as soon as you wake up in the morning when your mind is still some-what calm. It will take a week or to to learn because your mind is not use to not think.
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Do what @lichtblick says :-)
Dreams are not real but the feelings when you wake up are!! This helps you to recognize the feelings you walk around with!
You gonna be okay, this is just a life changing period, that's all.
Wish you the best!!
Great advice, I am going to take this meditation seriously. I need a better solution that is not pills.
I just wrote this Inspired by you :-)
https://steemit.com/health/@steemspoker/meditation-that-s-all
Do meditation. It calms your mind and clears your emotions :-) Just take a watch and program the the timer on 3 minutes ( later take 4, then 5 and so on ) just concentrate on your breath. Breath in- stop a second- breath out. If a thought will come up just go back to your breath. That really will help ;-)