and each time was more united to the girl with the eyes of a cat, which my current partner did not like, since I did not want him to see or know who was really her .......... ....
This is the part where the story is a bit strange @leminyer23. I think it is because the mistranslation. So you are a boy and your current partner is a girl not Him.
Not really tragic because you didn't really defined how you broke up with the girls, but I think if you take a good look at the girl's eyes... you probably find out that it weren't xat's eyes but hazelnut shape 😉
Keep writing and you'll find that you'll change and happier after that. I found your post through @stever82 entry post in the pay it forward contest this week. Keep steeming😉