I am a person who thinks that athletics does not have the support it needs, I like to run, compete, but athletics for me is a very difficult sport, for a large part I would like "because I want everything for me" I want to win alone as some do in that discipline, but then I think that if I'm not good enough everything will fall on me as you say in your post. Honestly I really like athletics at the end of it all, there are times when I watch on YouTube a video and then I watch another and another, until I take a break, but yes, I like it.