I could feel your pain as if I owned them as I read. The despair, the need to bear it all alone, the crushing weight it brings, and the endless hiccups.
Surely, one will be shaken, the presence of hope and faith almost lost. You feel heavy with unshed tears with questions, guilt, and then acceptance.
For one, I am glad you have sweet people around you to let you know you are not alone because you aren't. God will never give us a test without a way to sort it out. And, I am glad you've found ways to pour out your words, and I hope more will come to you ways will come to you.
I know what it feels like. Being terribly sick/diagnosed with something. I still carry my cross with what I have. I accepted it as it is. It is not easy, but it isn't impossible to get back on your feet and face the world with a sweet, deep smile.
You can listen to some music to help.
Songs like Who You Say I Am, The Blessing, Lord I Need You, and some others are my daily sweetness to continue living life.
Hello dearest fashionable dreemer. Happy Tuesday! It is tunes day, sweetie. I hope you are ready to feel our minds with those killer tunes of yours. Enjoy the rest of your day, and never forget how beautiful/handsome you are. I waltzed in from #dreemport, for I am an amazing #dreemer. An awesomely made #dreemerforlife.
Thank you @balikis95...indeed, He certainly will never give us challenges we can't handle
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That's right. Thanks for staying strong