Hi Ridge. Reading you was certainly emotional. I have never had to fight Lupus so I can't say I can imagine. No I can't. I won't devalue your strength that way. What we may have in common is acceptance. May not be in the same context but I understand how tough it is to come to a junction where you just "live" with it. You bear it with so many other questions ringing at the back of your mind and then like a soldier, you move forward - it is definitely not easy.
I don't know why these things happen either. But they just do. One reason I give myself is, "God let it come my way because He knows I am strong enough for it and if I am not, I trust Him to carry me."
I take solace in the joy that He trusts me with fighting my way through. And I don't think God is punishing you for anything. The world is just unfair. I really hope and pray you emerge the true fighter you are - brave with scars, kind at heart and full of soul.
Best wishes
Deraa.
Thank you so much @deraaa, I was really moved by your words...reading this makes me wanna cry (｡ŏ﹏ŏ). I'm really hoping that He will help me get through this...
He will ❤️