That resonates a lot!! (all these struggles, and the realisation that your vehicle is usually a visualisation of your own life, or at least I had to come to that rather confusing revelation)
...sounds like you are ready for a chateau?
I sometimes spend my time at laundry places, without doing laundry. Just charging my battery and talk to random people.
...and that sounds like it is already getting peaceful, or the highest waves have passed:)
Haha, a chateau has been a dream for a while. Who knows... :)
The van will go to a place where it feels better and where it can relax a bit more. Just like his current travel partner. We have to break up, the last 3 years together were a bit toxic.