The unsaid feeling.🥺

Hello there, hivers! this is now my new blog and please do read everyone.

I don't know where to begin, but I'm having a hard time emotionally and physically these days. I hope you can help me overcome other obstacles in life by giving some advice, I came from a family with a low-income background and I'm always thinking about how I'm going to get my allowance when tomorrow comes.

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hardest

I am budgeting my money because I am not a student who can afford anything; I am the eldest in the family, and every day I am thinking, How can I get money? to support my studies, I can't even look my parents straight whenever I ask for money.

Feeling lonely☹️

I don't know how to explain everything; it's hard. I feel so sad, helpless, embarrassed, and so on. I have my family and my friends, but everything seems so heavy that I feel lonely. My friends are there for me; they lift me up, but I can't even feel their presence. I don't know why.

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Don't want to be surrounded

Why is this happening?

I can easily make decisions; if there's a problem, I want it to be solved as soon as possible; I have people in my life who love me, but I don't want to share with them what I really feel inside; sometimes I don't want to be surrounded by people; I always cry in the middle of the night under my blanket; and the worst is that I was questioning God, "Why is this happening? It's too much.".

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heavy heart

I have no one to run to when I'm not okay. There are lots of things that I want to share with you guys, but sorry, I can't explain everything, but at least I shared some feelings that I have. It feels so heavy lately; if you could only put your life in my shoes, it's not easy.

I just realized that maybe God put me in this situation for a reason; maybe he wants me to become stronger in facing future problems; maybe God let me feel this to realize something or what, but despite all the challenges I have, I remained strong for myself, especially for my family.

Corinthians 1:3-4

All the feelings I have I will surrender to God. Just let it be and lean it to him, it said in 2 Corinthians 1:3–4, "Blessed be the God and father of our Lord Jesus, the Messiah; He is our merciful father and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our suffering, so that we may be able to comfort others in all their sufferings as we ourselves are comforted with God."

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Just pray

When it seems like life isn't fair and you want to cry, all you have to do is cling to Jesus. He will soothe you with his compassionate and understanding arms, heal your broken heart, take away your sorrow, stop your tears, and provide you with solace and peace.

It's important to find a comfortable and appropriate time to express unsaid feelings, like mine. It can be intimidating, but being honest about your feelings can lead to understanding and growth in your relationship.

Whoever is reading this, I just want you to know that God will always be there for you and that all of your feelings are valid.

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I understand you so well, I know that feeling. And you did the right thing writing all these that us messing up your head. At least, maybe, even a little, the heavy feeling in your heart lessen. It's really hard but keep on praying and keep on fighting. Aja!

I'm a self-supporting student and I know how hard it is to always think about where to get your allowance. Hive is a big help to me actually, and also some friends who introduced some part time jobs. Just don't lose hope, and you can always find a way. It's good that you shared it here if you can't voice it out to your loved ones. Sometimes, we need to pour it down when it becomes too heavy.

Just always trust God kyla. There is nothing impossible to God.

I was like this when I was still a student. Literal na isang kahig isang tuka talaga kamo so tomorrow is always a problem. Where will I get my allowance? Hiw do I pay for that photocopied reading materials? (Di pa kasi uso ebooks noon) I always end up walking from the university going home.

But everything turned out fine. Take it one day at a time. Cry if you need to. Write your thoughts and feelings as much as you can. Always hold on to hope. Always remembet na whatever you are going through right now, are just paving thebway to your future. Survive this, enjoy this. Because someday, as long as you keep on fighting thr good fight, as long as your keep your eyes on the horizon, someday you can finally say na you are better because of all of these.

Kaya kapit lang. :)

Hays this made me cry😭

I just want you to know that God will always be there for you and that all of your feelings are valid.

Certainly, God will always be there to listen to all your troubles. Just trust the process, and you'll eventually reap the fruits of your hardwork and sacrifices (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠).