I am sorry to hear you are going through a hard time. Journaling and writing about what you are going through is great! keep it up! Also, you are very right in wanting to talk about what is going on and seeking for help. If it is not your friends, somebody else will sure be helpful too. Sending you tons of good vibes your way for it to work out for you! Hope your brother is doing better too.
Thank You for your advice… I really needed it.
About my brother, he is fully recovered now it’s just that his leg got pretty damaged and he limps whenever he walks