I woke up earlier this morning with a diverse of thoughts that clouded my mind. My heart was so heavy, and I felt quite unhappy. Did I say unhappy? Deep sadness; it was to the point that I found it hard to say my morning prayer. It wasn't long; I heard a knock at my door, and I reluctantly gave the visitor access to my home. We had communication, and with how heavy my heart was, I spoke harshly to the poor man, and he quietly left.
I didn't see anything wrong with what I did. I went back to my bedroom and resumed my weird reflections of the past. The more I thought about them, the more I felt this heaviness, and the more I hated the people involved in making me sad. I simply refused to let go even when I gave them my words that I had forgiven them upon apologies. Really, it's difficult to forget. I mean, how do I forgive and just forget? I think I need help!
Still in my bedroom thinking, I heard a little voice that whispered gently to me. The voice said, Why not let go and give your mind a bit of freedom?" It was as if I was in a trance! I quickly entered the bathroom and had a very long bath this morning singing different worship songs to my creator. I was almost lost in the spirit, and gradually, I started feeling lightness in my heart and mind. I became better; it looks like I was set to let go at once. At this point, I said a short prayer, asking the Holy Spirit to help me.
Then, I remember how harshly I talked to the poor man that earlier visited my home for something important to him. I began in a search for this man, going around the whole community in search of where he could be doing his menial job to earn a living. At last, I found him and smiled. I was happy because at least I could apologize to him for my bad behavior towards him earlier this morning. The first question he asked me was, Did anyone offend you? I saw anger in you madam; it was quite unlike you, and I hope you take it easy with whatever is troubling your heart. I thanked him for such advice and deeply apologized to him for what happened earlier. Now I had to give him a listening ear to his previous request, and we got everything sorted out. I felt at peace!!!! No wonder the saying that peace of mind is a luxury!..
Letting go...
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What are those things that no longer serve you? How much are you willing to detach from it to be free and keep growing? It could be a bad habit; let it go! It could be unforgiveness; let it go! It could even be a bad friendship; just let it go!!! Life is a choice, you can choose to make a great decision that could affect your life positively or choose otherwise, at last, our happiness lies in our hands, we can work it out. Just like the heaviness I had this morning, it was as a result of the past mistake of my loved one towards me. The fact that an apology was made should be enough for me to let go and have this personal freedom and emotional clarity, feeling lighter, and keep thriving. Sure, I am letting go of this one; expressing myself here through writing is one step I have taken to offload this heaviness in my heart and live a more fulfilling life.
Letting go can be in a different form—maybe something far different from what I experienced today—but whatever it is, detachment looks like a functional working tactic in this subject.
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It's good that you found that man and could and say sorry to him. I think you need to be cautious before saying anything while you are angry. Every time you won't get the chance to apologize.
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Exactly, I may not get the chance to apologize.. and living with the guilt wouldn't be an easy thing for me. Life teaches us lessons daily
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