A good day to everyone!!!Welcome to another blog! I hope you’re all having a fantastic day filled with positivity and inspiration. Today, I want to share something very personal with you, my monologue for my 21st Century Subject. This piece is a reflection on my journey with body insecurities and self-acceptance. It’s a topic that resonates with many of us, and I believe it’s important to openly discuss our feelings about ourselves. So, without further ado, here it is:
"MY AMBIVALENT REFLECTION"
When I think about my body, the first word that comes to mind is “ambivalent.” It’s a constant battle between love and frustration, acceptance and insecurity. I don’t love it, and I don’t hate it either. Some days, I can stand in front of the mirror and see the beauty in myself, but on other days, all I can focus on are the things I wish I could change. It’s exhausting, trying to find peace in a body that doesn’t always feel comfortable. This tug-of-war between acceptance and self-doubt leaves me feeling vulnerable yet hopeful that one day I’ll truly love myself as I am.
There are parts of my body that I really love. My eyes, for instance, have a structure I find beautiful, especially when I put on eyeliner. They seem to come alive, and in those moments, I can see the beauty in myself. My lips also bring me joy; they’re well-formed, and I enjoy wearing pretty lipstick on them. But alongside these features I cherish, I struggle with others. My nose has always been a source of insecurity. Growing up in a family that emphasized having a “good nose” made me feel inadequate. Each time I look in the mirror, those feelings come rushing back, making me doubt myself.
I also have trouble seeing far away, which can be frustrating. Sometimes I feel trapped because I can’t fully experience the world around me. My hearing isn’t perfect either, which doesn’t make me feel lonely, but rather misunderstood. People often think I’m ignoring them when I simply can’t hear well, creating a distance that’s hard to bridge. I’ve also felt insecure about my jawline; I perceive my face as wide and big, adding to my feelings of inadequacy. I wish I could change those features to fit the narrow beauty standards society often promotes.
Yet, there have been moments that remind me I am worthy of love and acceptance. I remember when Katik looked at me and said, “Nindot kaayo kag lips, dae.” Those words filled me with warmth and made me feel special, if only for a moment. When Fhebie said, “Ganahan ko magsigeg stare sa imong mata,” I felt seen in a way I don’t often experience. But these bright moments can feel fleeting. The pressure to conform to society’s beauty standards can be overwhelming. I’ve always been a little chubby, and hearing that thinness is ideal fills me with shame. I feel like an outsider, trapped in a body that doesn’t fit the mold.
Even though my body hasn’t changed much, the memories attached to it are filled with pain, both physically and mentally. They remind me of the life lessons I’ve learned and how important it is to be kind to others, especially when I know how it feels to be judged.
In the end, I’m learning to embrace my ambivalence. It’s okay to feel unsure about my body; that’s part of my journey. To me, body positivity means thinking kindly about my body and recognizing its worth, regardless of its shape or size. I practice self-acceptance by focusing on the things I love about myself and reminding myself that I’m more than just my appearance. Each small step toward self-love matters, and if you ever feel lost in your own body, remember that you’re not alone. Your worth isn’t tied to your appearance. Embrace the beauty in your flaws, for they make you unique. You are enough, exactly as you are, and that’s a truth no one can take from you. Be thankful for God's creation!
(This photo was taken from Pinterest)
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This monologue reflects my ongoing journey of self-discovery and acceptance. It’s a reminder that our struggles with body image are common, and that embracing our insecurities is a vital part of growth. By sharing my experiences, I hope to encourage others to look beyond societal standards and to celebrate their individuality. Remember, your worth is not defined by your appearance, but by the strength and beauty within you. Let’s continue to support each other on this journey toward self-love and acceptance!
That's all for today's blog, everyone. May you keep on supporting me here as we explore different experiences in life. I, @saixieh, wish you a very blessed life. God bless!!💜💜
You are beautiful, always remember that. 🥰✨
Aww, thank you ateee!!🙈
You're always welcome inday🥰
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STOPloving ourselves genuinely is not easy. this may not be much of a help but this is a reminder that you are beautifully made and perfectly unique