How Faster Can Time Run?

I just needed somewhere to pour this out. I needed a way to communicate with my mind and tell her to stay out. It’s just what it is and it would go.

This is the moment I wish time could just speed up its space and heal completely. But then I wonder why truly we just can’t have a balance in this world of ours.
Why does a thing like one-sided emotion exist?
Why can’t we just find that perfect peace in that one soul?
Times like this make me question love.
It makes me think back on why I shouldn’t have any reason to change a single plan I aim for my future.. because in the end the logic where Love can’t exist without hurt.

Now I remember that song that says “I blame my stupid heart”. For all my suitors, it choose the most difficult to understand and right now, I choose to make a change and blame no more, rather give myself that dignity of pride to do what should have been done long before now.
Maybe I surely lose my peace for the time being, but am certain it will find me in due time until then, we keep up the smile.