I thought some chilled out house beats might be appropriate for this morning, that kinda music that ’s there for you even if your brain hasn’t totally showed up to the party, though that said, you’re way better at mornings than I am.
It’s going to be an early one for me tonight, If I can be on the way to drifting off by 8pm it’l be a victory. Ive got a lot of Christmas box related stuff I want to get on with, and I’m finding myself feeling frustrated having to move slowly minding my back. It’s healing, but I wish it would heal a little faster. More patience to foster, more lessons to be learned I guess..
It’s not to say that progress isn’t being made. I think about those 7 gigs I posted today. Something like that would have easily taken me a week, tweaking getting lost in perfectionism, changing the plan at the last minute and having to make all the graphics over and stuff like that. I think the one thing that blockchains and web platforms have taught me is is that there’s no such thing as legacy, It’s about getting something, anything up and out there, put out the feelers and moving on to the next thing.
I’d say it took me one day to write out all the copy and make the graphics, and a few hours to set them up in the actual app, I have to fight that monkey mind and perfectionist pattern every step of the way “maybe you should have…” “do you really want to do it like this?” “That could look better ya know..”.
But despite the doubts forward we march. I know for a fact that no one cares nearly as much as I do. And that’s the thing about “teh internetz” it can always be changed, edited, remixed and upgraded later. In fact it should be but it’s impossible to have that perspective of what should change now. So we just leave it the heck alone and get on with it already.
Maybe I’m finally learning some lessons after all, or maybe I just dont have the mental and emotional bandwidth to keep up with all the hoops I usually set out for myself, I’m tired of being the hyperactive agility dog at the dog show.
I just had this moment where a smile crept on to my face, because I realized how much I write in kinda a weird hyperbole, using bizarre metaphors and comparisons to articulate what I’m feeling, and you know what? I never ever have a thought that you won’t know what I’m talking about. I guess it’s always been that way with us eh?
‘Chains all ways updated, nodes in sync.
Two children of the internet in our own whays, who found each other in a sea of zeros and ones.
Have a lovely morning mousey. I’ll be pinging you soon as I get one eye open.
I love you very much, welcome to Wednesday.
<3 Dayle
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hey you, thank you for writing to me, it always means the world to me.
i love you, mouser x ;)
ps. i wrote you back.