In the time I have been alive, I have faced many moments of this type, where emotions are there, we do not know whether to cry or what to do. It may be that they are situations not for our own benefit, but for the benefit of others, somehow we are involved even if it is by blood ties.
The first thing I remember at this moment is the decision of when I lived in the capital of the republic, it began in me a spark that I wanted to have more calm in the daily movements, I already felt that I needed a change, of city, of spaces of people, I felt that my mission in this city was over even though it showed me many opportunities in the academic field, being the capital of the republic there were many options to continue preparing myself academically.
I did not see that because my desire to return to these lands of the province was growing every day. The day came, without expectations, with my heart a little wrinkled, I had no thoughts, I only felt that I was entering a tunnel looking for light, since then many things have happened, gratifying experiences, others perhaps not so much, the important thing is to look ahead, to continue growing personally every day with a lot of desire to move forward.
Another moment where I saw myself in two ways, was the moment when my daughter at 19 years old told us that she would leave the country, I did not know what to say, what to contribute, what to present to listen to alternatives, my brain was closed, I think I did not think, I just stopped to accompany my daughter in the preparation of papers, money, travel, how she would leave. At that time it was complicated, many young people leaving the country aimlessly, in the goodness of God, with hopes of improving, finding quality of life, many things happened.
My mother's heart crumpled again, this time it was not my decision but someone else's, my faith was that the road would be kind, without obstacles to reach the destination he chose. Of course, inside me I also felt that everything was not as she thought and that she would find difficult, dark days, as well as days with sunshine and many colors.
One way was distressing although she did not show it, and it is very wrong of me, that was a mourning, which was stuck in my heart, disguised as smiles, thoughts of Faith, although I know she cried a lot.
Another path, that I wished for the best, of understanding and acceptance, I understood that everyone must live their own path in this life, their own steps, whether they are right or wrong, even if they are our children.
Today, I feel that for my daughter it was a time of much growth, of getting to know herself, of demonstrating the courage she showed when she made the decision to leave the country...such a personal growth, that she has handled unpleasant situations well and many things have changed since that day when her heart had two paths...one path had to be respected and that is how it was.
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